awkward

last words

I watch my yellow cat invade my red cat in the yard

california

how did this happen

you must be crazy, your just lying

eyes for seeing

i was going to blog about something that made me feel less than happy
but i think, thinking that way can only make me feel crappy when i don't have to be

its not like it really matters, if i want to be a good person truly, i shouldn't need to get noticed or appreciated for it. it just shows me a little more of myself. usually when you do something selfless no one will notice, not to say that I act selflessly at all. Ha, i surely dont act selflessly. Most things i do are for my personal benefit but for all those people are selfless, i envy you, can't i learn to be more like you

think, how many people do you know that are selfless and get a lot of praise for it. its very few, because when your selfless, no one really notices.

.. when i did a little good, i was hoping for a little bit back, but thats not what i should look for in life, a little bit back

job

i spoke once but i have no answer, twice, but i will say no more

i dont remember

blogging last night, i really dont remember writing that, hahaha well kinda but not really

its better

look at both ends, a tail or a head, no difference

First time all year

i woke up smiling

and just like that

the battery died

there are more 1000 words to describe a feeling, and sometimes there are no words to describe another, isn't it odd how it works that way. this week went by fast, lately when i go to next class i think to myself "this class really isnt that bad, why do you hate it so much" and it makes it feel so much better, like school isn't so bad. It feels bad though, at night, when i know i need to wake up the next morning haha.

im actually glad now, that im going to california in two weeks. its weird, i've honestly never "missed" my brother, i've felt guilty about it but its just how i didnt feel. But now im really excited to see him, we dont talk much but i get him. Sometimes he's called just to talk, cause he's alone on the other side of the country, its actually nice, to get to talk with your brother. He's been on a 6 month cruise so i haven't talked to him for a while, and i.. miss him haha its different


dun dun dun dun i hear music in my head, this month will be good

my dream

they were all laughing, a bunch of old ladys i worked with, cause my alarm went off

they said "hahah look, hes waking up cause he set his alarm!"

Or something or Other

-i've never felt completely in place before
-music can brighten a day
-i remember what it was like to meet a whole bunch of new people and loving hanging out with them
-sometimes when i watch someone act so bitterly it actually makes me feel a tad bit sick in the stomach
-"and i'll be holding all the tickets, and you'll be holding all the fines"
-square, triangle, X, O
-my my my, my my my, myyy my
-i can remember the last time i dropped a full doo doo in my pants and what it felt like
-a smile can brighten a day
-today was ok
-i dont like band class much
-i actually didnt go to the gym today, or the day before or the day before that, actually not since Wednesday i think
have you ever had a dream that everyone you knew died, and you were all alone
-"land locked blues"
-i like cute things, but i dont like being it
-ever since i was little and i learned what sin was, i've had this thought in my mind "im terrible, im a sinner, im the worst kind of person and i cant stop it"
-i wish i could solve your problems, but you dont even know that i know.. the only reason that im interested is because, it believe, the way you think is very similar to the way i do
-"and there is kids playing guns in the street, and ones pointing his tree branch at me"
-i respect you more than any other person now, its funny i used to think you were a terrible person, nearly ashamed. You show me of what it means to be a true man
-"if you love something give it away?"
-you had always made me believe a biased opinion
-i like people, a lot
-i respect you greatly, your not always right, but i understand you and think that your one of the most honest people i know
-you dont see who cares about you most
-cranberry stew pops
-every sin is counted equally
-its funny
-"I BELIEVE KINGDOM HEARTS IS LIGHT!"... or something to that extent
-whats with confusion in the world, its all really simple truly
-i've said a lot of stupid things in my lifetime
-you know, i used to be funny.. i promise i really was
-what makes a man alive, is it his blood or his breath. its really nothing of a physical sort
-i dont understand, why you would pray to mary, or saints, isn't that blasphemy of some sort?
-"in your head, in your head, zombie, zombie, zombie eh eh"
-is someone with rabies and leprosy technically a zombie?
-im about to do my first out of school photoshop job for someone else.. aw fail, nothing for me to do, just some easy advice
- nghias wompzilla came out nice
-all this photoshop business has become a hassle

hehehehe

one is not like the others

one is different, or maybe a few

Six Flags

nope, im at teh vinces house waiting for bomban-a-tan to get ready so we can go hang out with jor.

forget senior trips im watching mean girls tonight baby

wahh

im out of ff, out of mgs.. fallout?