the sky glows. i see it shining with my eyes closed

dont you see who is around you. you dont see who cares. no, you do, maybe maybe. im writing from my stream of consciousness, so. do you appreciate. its ok if you dont, it will make the fading easier. when i leave, i will miss everyone so much more than they could possibly miss me

awkward

last words

I watch my yellow cat invade my red cat in the yard

california

how did this happen

you must be crazy, your just lying

eyes for seeing

i was going to blog about something that made me feel less than happy
but i think, thinking that way can only make me feel crappy when i don't have to be

its not like it really matters, if i want to be a good person truly, i shouldn't need to get noticed or appreciated for it. it just shows me a little more of myself. usually when you do something selfless no one will notice, not to say that I act selflessly at all. Ha, i surely dont act selflessly. Most things i do are for my personal benefit but for all those people are selfless, i envy you, can't i learn to be more like you

think, how many people do you know that are selfless and get a lot of praise for it. its very few, because when your selfless, no one really notices.

.. when i did a little good, i was hoping for a little bit back, but thats not what i should look for in life, a little bit back

job

i spoke once but i have no answer, twice, but i will say no more

i dont remember

blogging last night, i really dont remember writing that, hahaha well kinda but not really